I know how you fill I posted about the same thing acouple of days ago. There is sure alot of ups and downs that go along with what we have to deal with.Its hard enough to get out of bed some days. I dont know what the answer is for you I wish I had some great advice for you.( i am watching The Grynch that stoled Christmas on TV thatmakes me smile). I can tell you the people on here are great, and they know what there talking about. I think you have to keep in mind that tomorrow will be better if you make it.

the sadness very well, too well. I read your post and wanted to support you. Hang in there and be gentle with yourself. The mental and emotional side of having chronic pain swacked me upside the head in May and has continued to be almost as bad as the pain itself, sometimes seeming to have a life of it's own. Anxiety has been an issue for me lately. I began work in the 12 steps around having a chronic illness. It has helped me to begin to let go of control and given me moments of spiritual freedom, which honestly is the last thing I thought I needed. Thanks again for your post and keep up the good/hard work. Jackie

Crash,
Hopefully you can appeal the insurance company decision. I suggest you call and ask what course of action is open to you. Who knows what they look at when they make decisions, maybe they see you had surgery already for this problem and that is why they turn it down. Maybe just getting the surgeon to send a note explaining why this additional surgery is needed would help. .......I feel for you and I'm just trying to toss out some possible ideas. Don't give up and don't let this pull your spirit down. I am so sorry about your brother. We had a terrible year like that last year with the loss of several family members and several close friends. One was my best friend for over 40 years and was like a second mother to me. It makes it so much harder to cope. Hopefully your brother is now somewhere watching over you and can help get you through this tough time. ..I actually had my surgery on the first anniversary of the death of my best friend. I figured either she would watch over me or I would join her...guess she watched over me since I'm still here. Somedays I just miss her so much but others I feel like she is right near by.
LJ

I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this. I hope your doctor is filing an appeal and that the insurance company will pulls its head out of its you know what.

The chronic pain really impacts every part of our lives. How old are your kids? Mine are 3 and 5 so I can relate to you there too.

I don't want to be on pain meds and so much other crap for the rest of my life either. I'm praying that you get this approved with your insurance soon and that you are feeling better quickly!