A wise young man came to me one day when I was in the deepest darkest place I could possibly be in. I had just under went my 5th back surgery and was literally at my wits end!!
He came to me and handed me this peice of paper and I began to read it...as I read it---TEARS started streaming down my face and I was in total shock and aw!!
I looked up at this young man as I laid there flat on my back and VOWED right then and there I would live by those well spoken words...
"NEVER GIVE UP ON HOPE---HOPE NEVER GIVES UP ON YOU"
This young man is my 10 year old son and he at that very moment opened my soul...to want to fight and get better!! These words may not mean much to some people...but to me...THEY SAVED MY LIFE!!
MAY GOD BLESS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU WHO ARE FACING THE BATTLES OF PAIN, DESPAIR, AND DEPRESSION!! ALWAYS-ALWAYS REMEMBER...NO MATTER WHAT---GOD IS ALWAYS THERE...SOMETIMES IT TAKES A 10 YEAR OLD TO REMIND YOU!! IT DID FOR ME!!
GODS LOVE TO YOU ALL!!
Live each day as if it were your last...be thankfull for the things you do have and don't dwell on the things you don't. "Mo' Cuishle"
-Cathy (Cambran)
Discectomy L4-L5,bulging discs,Rapid DDD,(ESI--too many to count)Fusion(L-4,L-5,S-1)MARCH 2007...nerve damage in left leg and hip,C-4/C-5 Deteriation with Cervical straightening,RF procedures: August / Sept. 2008, ANS STIMULATOR UNIT inplant OCT. 9th 2008...ANS WIRE REVISION OCT 30th 2008...arthritis, etc...PRAISE GOD--I AM STILL ALIVE!!
he too has hope and it's contagious. i think i caught a bit of it reading your post
pete
Banned from Spine-Health
he too has hope and it's contagious. i think i caught a bit of it reading your post
pete
Banned from Spine-Health
PETE-
I tell you...I have faced many hard times in my life and my youngest son seems to keep me grounded and uplifted all the time!! He is my ANGEL on earth!! I love all my boys and am blessed to be a mother of 4 boys!! (2 on earth and 2 in HEAVEN)
I can honestly say...I have been dealt a tuff hand in life but God always reminds me to stand strong and never give up HOPE!! HENCE--the wise words from my sons lips to my ears!!
God does whisper to you....you just gotta listen!! In my case--he communicated threw my son!!
gheezzz---gives me chills!!
God Bless you - PETE!!!
Live each day as if it were your last...be thankfull for the things you do have and don't dwell on the things you don't. "Mo' Cuishle"
-Cathy (Cambran)
Discectomy L4-L5,bulging discs,Rapid DDD,(ESI--too many to count)Fusion(L-4,L-5,S-1)MARCH 2007...nerve damage in left leg and hip,C-4/C-5 Deteriation with Cervical straightening,RF procedures: August / Sept. 2008, ANS STIMULATOR UNIT inplant OCT. 9th 2008...ANS WIRE REVISION OCT 30th 2008...arthritis, etc...PRAISE GOD--I AM STILL ALIVE!!
Thank you for that sweet and uplifting story! I have tears in my eyes and a frog in my throat as I write this. You are very blessed to have such an insightful young man!
~kat (my posts are from my own experiences only, I'm NOT a Doctor!)
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What a smart young man you have. arent children so smart, they hear and see when we think they dont.they are so tuned in to us as parents to see that we are hurting .happy healing to you and god bless you and your family
Rebel Renee
..it was then son that I carried you.
Out of the mouth of babes. I'm glad God has let himself be known to you through your son. Take care. Charry
My 2nd MRI showed no herniated disc and no stenosis. Mild loss of signal intensity in intervertebral discs L1-S1 and mild loss of height from L1-L4. Mild DDD throughout the lumber spine. Still have back pain and some leg tingling, numbness though. 3rd opinion Neurosurgeon Oct. 6, 2009.
1st report last year Feb. 2008.
L5-S1 herniated disc with annular tear with disc material in contact with L5 exiting nerve, arthropy facet joints L4-L5. 5 Epidurals. Facet joint injections and 64 trigger point injections. Off work 21 months due to back and leg pain. Not a surgical candidate x 2 Ortho opinions. (history C5-7 osteoarthritis and DDD)
Infrared Platinum heating pad 4x/day and while sitting.
MS Contin 120mg, Cymbalta 60mg, lasix 20mg, Diovan for B/P . oxazepam 30mg for sleep. Excercise ball, recumbent stationary bicycle 30 mins. day, posture-pump for lower back. Tried PT, accupuncture, traction. Pool therapy Oct. 27/2009
http://www.livestrong.com/article/14700-self-affirmations/
Charry
Hope in itself is a waiting concept with inactive connotations, with pain you have to be proactive and go looking for relevant answers, we sometime have unrealistic expectation that for the want of looking or trying just that bit harder a solution must be around the corner and to some extent this idea is flawed.
Accepting reality is not giving in, you can chase that illusive rainbow of a cure and tie yourself and others in knots for the notion that a remedy is possible.
My sister died recently from breast cancer she knew the outcome and to her last breath never gave in even when all hope had gone and that takes some doing, the external presentation of hope and internal reality. Even with that knowledge that this is now my life, my professor was man enough to look me between the eyes and tell me the truth, not what I wanted or expected to hear, that took courage and I thank him.
Living strong is a life style and more so when you have an understanding of how the future will be, I am not a fatalist and would always encourage those on the journey of pain to continue to help themselves and as Cambran said NEVER give up, especially on yourself.
Take care John
DDD.1990 Laminectomy, Failed spine fusion, hartshill rectangle RLS. 3 stents
Pain is inevitable, misery is optional. Sternbach et al
Pain is a more terrible lord of mankind than even death itself.
Albert Schweitzer 1953.
“It’s not things that trouble us but the views we take of them” Epitectus
My dad - a carpenter, had his back injured when I was very young. Too young to realize what that meant or really remember much about it. He had a fusion and from then on (to the best of my knowledge) just gave up and started drinking lots of beer and sitting around.
Many years later i found myself in similar circumstances. I can safely say that I never liked my dad tho' he wasn't abusive. It was his behavior.
I wound up having a few years of drinking to dull the pain but thankfully 'woke up'. The love of a great woman and healthy kids that I didn't want to dissapoint the way my dad did me.
Sure, it's hard as hell most days and nothing is getting better physically but what i get back from my family is higher in proportion to what I give so i'm damn lucky indeed.
Kids are a blessing and i'm glad you got that boost when you needed it! Hold on to it tightly for nothing and no-one can take that away.
And thanks for the smile it gave me!
-Jim
you learned from watching your dad and YOU broke the cycle. your kids will see your example and benefit. they will put the tools to work again.
best of luck to you and your family
pete
Banned from Spine-Health
Well said, Jim and John, and thanks for the words of encouragement AND hope for all of us!
~kat (my posts are from my own experiences only, I'm NOT a Doctor!)
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"Whyme" previously known (or unknown) as "Jusserfinn"
Where did my sig go?
For some history, I guess just click on my name