Hi "pain buddies"
I have lived with chronic back pain for the last 5 years and as all you who have been there it is far from easy.
I was devasted when it first happened as i used to work with horses(my passion) and had always been a get-up-and-go person.
Going from that to having to sit,sleep and basically live in a recliner for the first 9 months not being able to go anywhere or do anything it was totally devastating.
Depression,Anger,Selfpity then moments of hope went round in a circle as well as putting pressure on family and friends.
7 months ago i was told it was a choice between a 3 level fusion with only 30% chance of it working or live with the pain.
I chose the latter!
It is like a weight was lifted and i finally accepted i was going to have to learn to live with the pain rather than fight against it which zaps all your energy and time.
So thats what i am doing.
Completely changed the way i felt and thought about my pain.
It hasn't been easy and still have my dark days but they are few and far between and i feel i can cope with anything!!
just tell me how ????? i am an upbeat person normally but if you have read any of my post you will know that i have has to face a similar decision to yourself .in my case its a ADR or stay as i am ..and both options seam like killers ..it has just about hit me 2 weeks on from the news and i am having trouble coping with it all ..i am scared of an operation that probable wont work and if it dose it will require maintenance due to my age {43} and the other option is just to stay as i am .in pain /not sleeping and taking a high level of pain killers .i have gone from a fit swimmer to a man i don't recognise not only physically but dare i say it mentally too ..there i said it!! ,i am struggling
STRAKER
2010 just had a discography and now waiting for an ALIF open fusion {360 degree}