I shouldn't complain because life could be worse. I feel bad because so many people have the same problems as I do so I feel I shouldn't dump mine on any one else. Here goes any ways. I'm in constant pain. I can only sleep about 3 hours a day. I'm sad all the time. I pray for rainy days so I can stay in bed all day. I feel like crying alot. Thank God for my kids because when they are home I seem to do better. I am mean to my husband some times and I don't even know why. He is so good to me that he understands why I act the way I do but then that just makes me feel like the worse wife in the world. We are having a really tuff time financially but he still insists me not working until I'm able to controll my pain. He says he is planning on taking care of me for the rest of my life if need be. I have absolutely no sex drive but he is very understanding about that also. So sweet so why do I treat him like dirt sometimes? God, I wish these feelings of dispare and worthlessness would go away. I want to be normal again and be able to watch my sons football games without doping myself up and then still being in bad pain. I want to enjoy a dinner date and a little romance with my husband again. I want to be a normal 35 year old women instead of this depressed thing stuck in a body in pain. And now the feelings of guilt start because I know things could be worse so I have no place to complain. I'm sorry to be such a whiner. Thanks for "listening" to me.