I had my collar off for awhile and I was looking in the mirror at the incision to make sure there was no infection (the strips still haven't fallen off). While I was looking I noticed something. I can hold my head completely up now. I mean to the point that I have no double chin. Maybe it's all the alone time but...I almost started crying. I had started noticing in the past few months that I had a tendency to tilt my head down and to the right most of the time. I tried to remember to lift it up but you know how that is....I think you just get into a habit of holding it a certain way to avoid the pain and it becomes a part of you. I can lift my head straight up now. A part of me wants to cry to because...it's such bullshit that a person ever has to get to this point simply because its easier for a dr to throw drugs at a problem. This was preventable. This was fixable 8 years ago. I hope that someday that thought stops making me so angry. For now...I think I'm going to go look at myself in the mirror some more and be grateful for the little things in life that I still have.