I am so tired of living with pain! I have these 2 little boys that need their mom to be more patient and pain free. My problem is that I stay home with them and am not getting any relief for my back. My last MRI showed a lot of scar tissue and swelling. I have so much nerve pain still, pain from my out of whack SI joints and most likely a new herniation at L4-L5 causing pain and tingling in the front of my leg. I saw my chiro the other day and he's sure it's because I'm lifting my 22lb baby all day long. I quit my parttime job because the stress of 2 kids and working was too hard on my back. Geeez, should I go back to work and put the kids in daycare so I don't have the phyiscal stress of taking care of them? But I feel that I had my kids to be with them! I don't know what to do for the pain when it seems that no matter what I do it's not going to get better because I'm lifting my baby. I am finding myself with no motivation to even exercise because nothing helps and I'm really fearful that I'm getting very depressed. I would sure appreciate any help! My husband is really sick of this (though he's never said anything, you can just tell.) He never asks how I'm feeling, never voluntarily helps out, etc. My inlaws are sick of it. My mom is the only person to talk to about it and I'm sure she's sick of it, too! Who wouldn't be?!!? I try so hard to be optimistic and happy, but it's just getting dang hard. I'm scared, depressed, and frustrated. I have been trying to get back to my 'old' life and the more I do, the more I hurt. I worked at the election polls yesterday (something I am passionate about) and the pain from sitting that long is excrutiating still today. I took my kids to church Sunday (another thing I love) and was so wiped out after that hour that I had to lie down the rest of the darn day and missed a party I really wanted to attend. I'm sorry this got so long....I'm just truly at the end of my rope and need a shoulder to cry on, some guidance, anything! Thanks for listening!