Hi This is my first time posting so please bear with me. I am reaching out for answers, understanding, people who can relate or any kind of encouragement at this point. Here's my story:
I went through 6 years of various therapies (chiropractor, spinal decompression, PT, steriod injections 2x's, facet block , radio frequency ablation diagnosis and discogram). I finally gave in and had a anterior spinal fusion of L5, S1 on 7/1/08. One year prior to this surgery I was approximately 70 pounds less. Due to the extreme pain, I was unable to continue with my daily 1 1/2 - 2 hours of exercise. The weight piled on quick and the pain came on even more intense. I am now 4 months post op and still 70 pounds overweight. I am extremely depressed and in constant pain. The only difference I've noticed is that I do not have the muscle spasms as before, however I am still getting the extreme sciatica pain down right leg down to calf. When I sit for more than about 10 minutes my legs get numb (even left side which I didn't have problems with this side before). It feels like that pins and needles feeling when your legs fall asleep. I keep telling my surgeon how much pain I am in and he says I need to wean off the pain meds since my body has become so dependent on them. I am currently on vicoprofin (2-4 per day), effexor for depression, klonopin for anxiety, stool softeners....you can figure that one out and zolpidem for insomnia. I feel I've done good at weaning down on the drugs however now I don't have enough to manage the pain. He is going to do a CT scan shortly to see if the bone is regrowing properly or any other problems. He has mentioned several times that my weight is not helping my recovery, which I completely understand and am very ashamed. I've tried to excercise and everything hurts. Even walking just a little bit which I tried doing. I am so depressed because the pain is stressing me out. I feel completely worthless because I have trouble doing easy everyday chores we would normally take for granted (loading dishwasher, washing machine, mopping, sweeping etc.) The Dr doesn't understand why I can't just get up and push through this pain, lose weight and start feeling better.
Can anyone relate to my situation, offer advice, support etc? I have called the dr 3x's this week to let them know I don't have enough pain meds to last the weekend and they never called me back so I guess I have to just bear it until I can reach them next week. I don't understand their logic.