Some of the threads I read here were as if I'd written them myself and literally brought tears to my eyes.
I'm a 38y/o white male, I've had back pain since I was 18, it'd flare up now and then enough to put me out of work for a few months, but I'd be able to go back to normal life just with pain.
I was given 5mg percocet back then, but wouldn't take them. About 1998 I realized the only one I was impressing with how much pain I could take was myself, and I wasn't impressed! 30 percocet would last me at the minimum 3mo sometimes 6mo and occasionally a year!
In 2001 it got bad and I had a L5/S1 discectomey/laminectomy, I spent most of 2002 babying it and getting tighter and worse again. I had 13 years of printing expierience that are totally useless now because I couldn't go back to that industry.
Late 2002 I started taking jiu jitsu and felt REALLY good after every class, I think I got to feeling as good as I ever would, still had pain now and then, but 5mg percocet now and then kept it under control. I eventually got a good job again in 2005 and the classes wained back to none.
The pain has been getting increasingly worse over the last 3 years, The 5mg Percocet were like nothing after a while but I couldn't get anything stronger. I had a discagram in July of this year when I thought I was at my worst, nothing against the Dr that did it, but it really flared things up bad and I've been out of work since then. The only good thing was that they finally deemed me worthy of stronger pain meds.
My family was supportive through everything until the day I got put on oxycontin, then it seems like they just turned on me. I got a email saying that I was faking this whole thing for the pain meds and I needed to knock off the BS and go back to work!
All throughout my youth I was always straight edge, no alcohol, no drugs, I never even drank a beer before let alone ever been drunk. I smoked a cigarette when I was 21 to see what it was about.
So now here I am with pain pills that I'm hesitant to take, not only because of the real world possibility of becoming addicted, the constipation problems but I also feel like it cost me my family. (Extended family, my household is good)
Physical therapy isn't helping, I won't take my oxy's everyday because I don't want to become addicted even though some of the most important people to me already think I am and refuse to talk to me or even aknowledge I exist anymore.
I have so much pain, I sound like a broken record, not only do the bad parts of my back hurt, my shoulders, biceps, hip joints and thighs hurt, I think that's a withdrawl symptom of not taking the opiates, I'm not positive, but just the thought of it that makes me not want to take them even more and I wind up being in way more pain than I should be and only take the oxy's when the muscle pains are all gone and it's just back pain.
Meanwhile I'm on partial disability from a job where I WAS making the most money I've ever been able to make with my crappy education/location, now I'm trying to live on 40% of what I was making before this, there's nothing I'd like more than to be able to go back to work and be getting those paychecks.
I sold some of my favorite possessions to get a zero gravity chair, THIS thing HAS helped a lot, I'll give it that much.
I don't know what else to say...it sucks. Sorry this was so long, I coulda just said "My name is Justin, This sucks"!