Hi there everyone...I've been reading for several days and am amazed by the support you all give one another.
My story is like the common cold compared to many of you, nonetheless, I live with chronic pain every day of my life that no one around me understands. I'm quite withdrawn about my condition and do not tell many people...even those close to me b/c I feel I am too young (35)...then I come here and many of you are in your 20s! I have 5 children from 5 to 16 and its becoming increaasingly difficult to do day to day activities without the severe pain. I've had neck pain with right hand weakness/spasms for 3 years (3 bulging discs by MRI). My PM doc says I should not hurt this bad. I recently had a new MRI including a lower back b/c I was having severe sciatic pain and having trouble walking and now have a herniated disc L5 S1 (which I was told was in my head before the MRI).
This chronic pain is really getting to me. I really need a doc who has actually FELT some of these back issues. It's pure torture and it's something I can deal with if only I felt understood. Two months ago I asked to go off my Fentanyl patches, and I did, but b/c my PM suggested a shrink to help my manage my pain...I haven't been back, so I'm suffering in pain. Maybe I took it too hard, but it really hurt me...I loved my PM, but that comment made me feel belittled...especially when I am the one who asked to try to come off the patches. I loved a quote someone had on here from a nursing journal that "if you go in crying, they think you are depressed, but if you go in happy, they think there is no way you can be in so much pain". It really is a catch 22 for us in chronic pain every day. It's a tough world. Many days I don't want to get out of bed...I know a couple hours on my feet will put me in excruciating pain.
I'm glad I found this board...you all are so much like me. Best wishes to you all...