I just re-read the first post I posted here 6 weeks ago and all your wonderful replies. I was sooo sad when I wrote that. I remember tears streaming down my face and wondered if anyone would really care? and then your responses came and I cried with each one I read. thank you, again!
here it is December. since my fusion (in the past month) I've had 6 injections. the last two in my hips cuz they get inflammed so easily (bursitis!) no numbing anything first. I couldn't even talk after them! I looked at my husband and my eyes were watering and then I started laughing. honest to God. what an odd response. like it was so incredulous to me all the pain I've endured. the next day I could hardly walk. I've never had so much trouble walking except for after the fusion.
so... the saga continues but thankfully I don't feel I'm about to lose my mind.
my therapist friend left me a voicemail and said if I need therapy to call him... that I'm in denial. what the hail???!!! I was like, no I'm not! (I left him a voicemail back) I need to talk to him (he's a good friend--- I don't really feel I have the time right now to go to a counselor).
what does it mean to be in denial? am I just supposed to accept the pain and quit looking for answers? I don't understand. and I wonder how he could know what I'm going through since he's never had chronic pain? I guess as a therapist he could see that? I don't know. I'll have to call him. do I sound like I'm in denial???
I'll let you know what he says...