Hi everybody, My name's Carol aka Giddyone, I'm a newbie from London, UK, suffering terribly at the moment & feeling very low. Keep it short, I have a long history of health problems thoughout my adult life but the last 12 years has seen my life change so much it is unrecognisable from the life I knew back then. My main problem is chronic back pain & immobility, the pain is now unrelenting & it is driving me insane today. I have lost my job of 20 years which I loved dearly, I lost an 11 year relationship with my beloved partner & best friend, I have lost my independence, I have lost my mobility, I have lost my old self & almost my sanity ,I have lost my confidence but most of all I have lost the life which I had & loved. All this because of my problems & my pain. That's all I'll say for now, today I am very sad & can't see a way forward. Thanks for letting me speak.