(Deep breath)..... I see my current PCP (from hell) today at 1030am.... just a couple of hours away and I am a mess at the moment. I am posting this between trips to the bathroom, if you know what I mean!!
My approach with him this morning is going to be like this.. I plan on mentioning the many mistakes that his office has made with me. Mistakes that I have gladly accepted their apologies and moved on down the road... until the next "mistake". I feel like I am being treated like I have done something wrong, which it has been proven time and time again that it wasn't me as I was confused with some other patient each time. I want to ask him what can I do to improve our relationship? I want to tell him how important he is to me.... to have a competent physician that I can RELY on to take care of me. I want to thank him for finally diagnosing me with Bipolar Disorder, when over the years other doctors would just increase my depression meds, which had no effect on my Bipolar Symptoms. He has done some great things for me. And I need him to continue to do MORE great things for me. Right now that means knowing that I am not going to have to go thru a police line up every time I need my meds refilled. I need a sense of rapport and trust with him.... how can we achieve this??
I feel like if I come at him this way maybe it might be good. Good in the aspect that I'm not there to piss him off, that I am asking for his expertise and care. I am hoping that atleast this may smooth things over for the time being.... I can see this other PCP doc on the 21st and decide if that is a good fit. If it ISN'T I haven't screwed myself with my current doc. And if it DOES, all the better. I can simply send him a letter stating that I have changed doctors and that I appreciate all that he has done for me.... and so does my therapist!~ (LOL... not gonna say that.. but he HAS increased the frequency that I see my therapist, simply because he has made me feel like such a loser... but not planning on saying this!!)
Any input on my intended approach with him this morning? I gotta run into the bathroom again, but will be around here until I leave to see him. I feel like I am walking the "Green Mile" everytime I walk into his office.
Hugs..... god I need one,