Today I recieved the awful news that my best friend in NH has been put on life support. Yesterday she and her husband were watching tv and suddenly her heart stopped beating. Her husband called 911 and proceeded to follow their instructions to save her. 911 came and used the paddles twice to get her heart going, she is now in the hospital on life support and was without oxygen for 25 mins. Her doctor has little hope that she will put out of it and a decison will needed to be made. I have been in that place before it is not easy to say the least. My friend has gastric bypass surgery 4 years ago and has really never been the same health wise. Her numbers were always low in the electrolyte department and we all know that is not good. She always drank a bit to much and after surgery she replaced the food with alcohol and it really did not take much because of the size of her stomach. I love her so much. I began to not want to be with her and her husband so much as they always drank to much and she reminded me of my mother when she drank. I thought I was making the right decsion when I told her she needed to stop drinking and that I did not like being with her when she was drunk. Long story we did not talk to each other till thanksgiving of this year when I sent her a card and told her I was sorry that I felt the way I did and hurt her and asked her to forgive me. I really thought I would help her if I told her this and used tough love on her. I was actually trying to save her life. Yes as I sit here I feel so bad that this happened to us and we never got to really straighten things out. She and her husband stood up for us at our wedding so you see at one time we were so close. I find it hard to believe and I know it does how ones life is just taken in the blink of an eye. I have thought alot about this today and thank God for allowing me to have her as a friend. I constantly feel sorry for myself because of my health. Today it hit home how lucky I was to be alive and that I have the option to get better and take care of myself. I pray that she will come out of it but I know that I have to accept this as Gods will and learn somthing from it. Friendship and family are so important to us, and sometimes we don't take the time to appreciate it. I have learned today that I can't put off today what I can do tommorrow as far as friendship and love go. Im not sure if any of this makes sence but I had to write this to feel better I guess. I cared and loved her enough to tell her that her drinking was going to kill her.