I thought I would give you guys and update. I haven't posted any of my own stuff lately, just replying to others. I was just in chat by accident and couldn't beleive how many people were awake.
Let me start by saying I love you guys and am so glad that I found this site. It's help me in so many ways.
I feel like I am on the brink of a nervous breakdown at this point. I finally had my appt with the new neurologist on Friday. It was a complete waste of time and I left crying hysterically. Thank goodness I was able to reach my dad by phone because he helped calm me down so I could drive home. This neuro doesn't specialize in spine, doesn't prescribe pain meds and can't do anything with out EMG. I already knew this so I tried to get my primary doc to order one before I see this guy so he will have the results. I wasted a month waiting for this appt thinking this was the answer.
Now I hurry up and wait until Feb 11th comes and I have EMG. He said I will have the results at that time but said I should consider seeing a spine specialists....duh...you think L) I was so discouraged, disappointed and upset. I was hoping this guy was going to be the answer to my prayers and he's just a nightmare. He did the pricking me with a pin test and I didn't hurt on the tops of my feet. I didn't feel the prick until he got to my ankles. This was very scary as I know this can be a sign of nerve damage. The only thing running through my mind at this point is peripheral neuropathy which my father has and is in a wheelchair.
I just kept thinking, is this how my life is going to be. I'm 31 and I want to be able to do the things I used to. How can I do this with nerve damage. I am stressing over this so much and I haven't even had the nerve test done.
Now I am on antoher search to find a spine specialist and see if my primary doc will fill my prescriptions because he only gave me enough until I had this appt Friday. He was hoping this guy would take over my meds. I have to talk to my primary this week to see what to do about that.
In addition to all of this, my gma has stage IV non-small cell lung cancer in both lungs and has been given apprx 8 months to live. My uncle is supposed to take care of her affairs but lives in VA so asked me to help him get as much info as I can since I know the most about insurance and estates etc in our family. My cousin, her boyfriend and their 2 1/2 yr old live with my gma. They are supposed to be helping her out but are completely lazy. They are in their early 20's. I had a huge fight with cousin's BF today because the house is such a mess, gma is not getting her hair washed, clothes or bedding washed as well as her body. I talked to hospice to have them do this but they thought my cousin would be doing it since she said she was. She lied to hospice and now I am dealing with this.
All of this stress has really taken a toll on me. I am having severe muscle spasms and have taken max dose of everything I have including some things I have that were given to me to try (I know that I'm not supposed to do this but I was desperate). So now I am wide awake in excrutiating muscle spasm and back, leg pain right now and all I want to do is go to bed.
I am sorry for the long post. I just wanted those who have been there through all of this with me to know why I haven't been on much and to know what's going on with me.
I still try to log on and help out newcomers and read the new posts but not as often. I'm still waiting for all the meds I've taken within the last 2 hours to kick in but they haven't.
Thanks SH for always being there for me :X