Over the past 2 months, I have been getting all sorts of different tests. I started with a flareup shortly after Thanksgiving and we have been unable to figure out why.
- MRI: Nothing really different, natural progression of stenosis, etc
- X-Rays: These showed a bunch of arthritis and had it has grown rapidly, but still not a major news item
- EMG: No new nerve damage. Still shows some older nerve damage in my leg, but from the cervical point of view, everything is fine
Ok, so then I should be feeling ok.... And if I dont, then its probably something in my head
I am sure many others out there have had tests which come back showing no problems, but yet they still are in pain.
Does that say we all are just drumming things up inside our head?
Its very good that I know most of the doctors that look after me and the fact that they all know my wife from work in the hospital, they are very up front with me. Today, after the EMG, the doctor said, "Well, nothing damaging is showing, so your nerves are good from neck to waist", My reply was , "Thanks, I appreciate that, but"
I still have no clue as to why and what this flareup is about. The doctor pulled me aside and said: "Ron, if the tests showed you had multiple nerve problems, so be it, if your MRI showed more advanced herniation of your T-discs, so be it"
What he was telling me, is that it really doesnt matter. I have pain, I will have pain, it wont go away, and it really doesnt matter what tests show. 35+ years of problems with my spine do not just go away , nor do they always want to show themselves!
I really appreciated that, because, it did just confirm what I already knew.
Sp what if something new was found, I am really not a good candidate for surgery, so instead I would have to work on other ways to control things.
This is my life, I am totally ok with it and can deal with it. Sure, I wish I didnt always have to have pain, but things could be so much worse. So, my mission is to do the right things to help manage and deal with this all. Flareups will come and flareups will go, I will still be here.
I can not tell you how much this all means to mean. I've been positive before and now, more than ever I am super positive. I can not change what has happened to me, I can make things worse, but its in my power to do whatever is necessary to keep things under control. I plan on being around a long time and nothing is going to get in my way to disturb those plans.
I am a very lucky man, I have my family, I have love, I have friendships and I have everyone of you out there helping me in so many different ways
Ron DiLauro Spine-Health System Administrator I am not a medical professional. I comment on personal experiences