Please can someone else chime in and let me know I'm not the only one that FREAKS out when they get something in the mail? I received confirmation in the mail from my insurance carrier today. It lists all the fun stuff, you know cervical disc desease with myleopathy etc,. I knew it was there, knew it needed to be written down to be approved for the SCS. So I KNOW all this stuff. Yet, seeing it in writting just has me about half freaked out. I have waited for the SCS trial to be approved. Now it has! Yet all I think now is about having wires pushed up along my spine, what if it doesn't work. What if it does? How do I return to normal life now? I have been limited in all aspects of my life for over 2.5 years, what will it take to get back to "norma"? after passing the Psych eval for the SCS I now find myself afraid to even ask for help with any of this! What If they realize I am nuts AND CHANGE THEIR MINDS?
I have dealt with depression, meds, shrinks and doctors about this type stuff for 15+ years, long before my accident. I know all the stuff that I need to do. Yet still have to ask. AM I alone in being smart enough to know what is going on, yet not quite smart enough to calm down about it? :SS ~X(