On jan 29th I had an accident that has changed everything and I am running low on hope. I fell down some stairs and inadvertinatly struck my back in such a manner that it aherniated 2 discs at L4-L5 L5-S1. I have been going through pain management with both narcotics and controlled drugs which absolutly make me a different person, but it does help with the pain, so I take as few as possible so I can keep my head, and I am going through weekly epidural cortisone injections. My doctor says I will needs surgery and not to do pretty much anything since it may further injur my back. I have been with my girlfriend for quite sometime now, I adopted her 2 kids (there dad committed suicide and I stepped in) and we have a child together, When I had my accident I was the head of household and I worked 50-60 hrs a week and paid for everything while she watched the baby and took care of the house, (I knew I had the better half of the deal, babys are killer). Now she had to go back to work and start to pay for things, and she has so much going on with work, the baby, the kids, taking care of me and the house, she's scared and almost left me. I'm in a lot of pain and now I have no source of income, and I don't want to lose her. She is my world and the kids a re my moons. I'd just be empty space without them. What do I do? I can't pick up the baby, I can barley walk and the last thing I want is for her to leave me. I will get better but it's a long road and I'm confused.