So often we focus our thoughts, our energy on what pain has taken away from us. I do believe that we should accept, and allow, to grieve. I also believe that we should take the time to see what gifts our challenges (or opportunities for growth) bring us as well.
For example, I have been given many gifts over the last few months. I have been able to take the time to sit with myself, to know myself better. I have relished in the simple joy of breath. Each morning I wake, the first thing I do is take a deep breath and think thank on the inhale and you on the exhale. Granted I ache in the mornings. The ache of the ages has settled into my lower back and my hips. To counter this I start out with gratitude. The breath, a low flow heating pad, and a few gentle stretches allow me to get out of the bed.
I am historically a very strong and independant person. Many people rely on me to lead by example, to be the rock, the supporter, the force. Having to depend on others to do things as simple and intimate as clean my privates was extremely difficult for me. Extremely. I did however allow myself to feel that vunerablity, for the first time to let go of my shame. Relying on others to help me has healed many relationships. It has changed the way I think about myself.
My relationship with my daughter, my ex husband, my father, my husband, my siblings, and my friends have all become more authentic. I was forced to be me when I had no other choice and I count this as a blessing.
Being home for 3 months gave me much needed respite from my busy life as a property manager of a very large apartment community. 3 months of finally being allowed, applauded, and expected to take care of myself. To listen to my body, to pay attention to my needs. Why is it in this society that people think that being self centered is bad, wrong. Being centered in self does not sound so horrible to me. That is a good place to start from, a good place to live from, the center of your self.
In this time I have studied other languages, listened to great music, written songs for native american flute, recorded songs, tried new recipes, read books I have always wanted to read. These are just examples of the things I allowed myself in this time of healing.
I write this to say that I count this whole experience as a blessing. Yes, it has been the hardest time of my life. I do not discount that. I only mean to say that if you take the time to stop, breathe, listen, and perhaps change your perspective, you can find beauty and truth in any situation.
So, what blessings have you found because of your pain challenges?