So at 16 I was diagnosed with Spondylolesthisis of L5 on S1 along with Spina Bifida Occulta. At 37 it was at a Acute on chronic grade 2 Spondylolesthesis with cauda equina syndrome. So the Dr.'s did an emergency Decompression and L4-S1 USS instrumental fusion a 7 1/2 hour operation. I was in hospital for 3 weeks following surgery. I thought I was fixed. Well not quite that easy...First i did nothing except "watch the grass grow" as my Dr. said then after the year I thought I would be better. Well was I ever wrong! I now suffer from the chronic pain of nerve damage to my spinal cord. As well as Degenerative Arthritis in my upper back now. Everyday is filled with pain after trying to do the most medial tasks. My family life has suffered because I can not be there for them physically as well as with the morphine my mind is clouded. I really feel like I have lost everything. We got a laptop so at least I can go on the computer but right now it is broken so I have to sit here to type this and it is excrutiating. So that is it in a nutshell. It has been 5 years now and it doesn't look like things are going to get much better. I would love to hear any encouraging words or advice.