So I had disappeared for a while...Living at my mom's I had to be careful with my internet usage! But not long after I had logged onto here I had found a want ad for some one who was looking for a nanny for his ten year old. I called, we met, I got the position as a live-in, which by the way, there were no computers or internet there...I worked there for a month and he came up to me and said he didn't think it was going to work out unless we tried dating! I said hell no and moved out quickly, disgusted with him and the whole situation- there was something wrong with those people, I swear, aside from his whole "date me or lose your job thing"...But I'm trying to keep this as brief as possible.
So I called my mom and told her what had happened and that I needed to move back home. She suggested that I go and speak to the man and talk to him about keeping the job, not dating him but trying to keep it and be professional. Needless to say, I didn't. Then I tell her that I need to move back home and she said that I couldn't! So, fortunately, I found a friend who was willing to take me in for a week or two...My nerves were fried and I had no idea what on God's green earth I was going to do. I had no job, the bastard I worked for only gave me $150 which wasn't even close to what we agreed on and I had to pick up a $100 prescription. Of course, social security hadn't/hasn't come through so there was no money there and my mom was keeping my unemployment to pay the credit card bill that she used to buy me things after the trial.
After a week and a half of living with my friend, he was ready for me to find another place to go for a little while-he was used to living by himself. I still had no job and very little money...I had called my lawyer to see what could be done as the insurance company appealed the decision and I have not yet received a dime from them- he said to hang in there! I hate Progressive so much it makes me ill! I also found out that there was a $2 million umbrella policy that was hidden from both my lawyer and myself. I have a meeting with him tomorrow to figure out how the heck we're going to attack that.
Fortunately at the moment, I am staying with a friend, an older lady. Her husband is in the final stages of Parkinson's and is being cared for at home. She is paying me to help her to take care of him, like when the him health person isn't there or in the evenings if she would like to go to dinner with her granddaughter, go to the mall or just get out of the house. Also since I am here at night she has some one to help her if something should happen...I am very, very grateful for this...I am also working part-time for my stepfather and have decided to start selling jewelry (I make jewelry in my spare time which I have a lot of some days) and I have some locations that are willing to sell my stuff, so that's good.
I'm still waiting on the neurosurgeon and fighting with my PM doctor. I hate being my age and in chronic pain. And while I'm grateful for a roof over my head and food to eat, I'm still super stressed! This is not my home so I don't ever seem to fully relax here. I'm fighting with the pain, still, though I had a good week last week, this week it feels like I've been run over by a truck! I don't know how to make anything any clearer to my doctor and the only thing I can do when I go in next is tell him what's going on, ask him what the heck I'm supposed to do when the pain starts to hit a 9/10 and it feels like someone is stabbing the discs and bones in my neck with a dull knife among other things, and get a butt full of steroids.
And I can see how badly I've deteriorated since the accident, so far this year I have had at least 30 days where all I can do is lay down and 60+ where I hurt so bad my eyes are burning and tearing up involuntarily...
Anyways, enough of the pain stuff, I'm just tired...I'm so close to being homeless it's scary, but hopefully I will be able to avoid that on the whole. I did lose a whole pant/dress size from all the stress as I wasn't eating or sleeping. So now I need new clothes, lol!
I hope all of you are doing well...I've been sick so I haven't been able to post or read as fast as I'd like to, but I'm working on it...And right now I have to go lay down, I feel like some one beat the heck out of me- there's a cool front moving through, oh joy!
Love to all of you and hope you're having good pain days...And if not, gentle hugs to those who aren't.