If you have read my other posts you know I have been having problems with the pain clinic I go to. I can't go anywhere else because There just isn't anywhere else TO go.
I have had the worst experiences at this place. I only go there now because they prescribe my hydrocodone. I signed the form and agreed to be tested to make sure I am not abusing etc... Had my first urine screen there a couple months ago. Had been there about 4 times and never had a test.
I got my script after which was only for two weeks. seemed kind of strange. I hate calling them because they are always so rude and there is always a problem so I just made the two weeks last as long as I could. Script ran low so I called for a refill. Got the run around, treated like a criminal, the whole deal. Had to wait almost a whole week due to phone tag, pharmacy screw ups, drug shortages, being told I would have to take my script and call all over town to find it myself...you know...the normal stuff.
During the time I was out I had a flare up. They are severe and although I have talked to the staff at the clinic about them numerous times nobody seems to care. I was a mess. I was trying to go to my part time job and I was in so much pain I started to feel suicidal. This happens to me when these flares hit and last for days on end. I feel like I am in a trap and i can't get out no matter what I do. It sucks!
So I did a bad thing and asked a friend of mine if she would let me have one of her percosets because I could not deal. She had to bring them to me because i couldn't move. She gave me two and I took one then and it helped to take the edge off but did not take a lot of the pain away. I saved the other one for a few days and after 3 days of still not being able to get my own script filled I took the other one. That was it. I really wanted to get into my car and drive into a wall at 100 mph because I could not take the pain anymore but instead I did the "unthinkable" and took someone elses medication.
That was over a month ago. I have since finally gotten my script, which will be my last. I went to the pain clinic today and was tested. My urine screen showed Oxycodone. I had forgotten about the percoset. I admitted to the nurse that this is what had happened. She said that it was still in my system. after a month. I was not even concerned about it because I wasn't trying to get away with anything and I had actually forgot about it since it was so long ago.Well the verdict is in and Guess what kids...I'm a drug abuser!
I sure am glad I stayed sober and straight when all my friends were killing themselves with booze and drugs. Smoked a little pot here and there. been drunk twice in my life. So much for that though because now I will never be able to get pain meds. I love this system. I can probably go find some skater kids at the local mall and buy them. I'm sure they can get them. oh wait. i don't have the money to be a real drug addict. sorry to offend anyone. Seems like everything Is a punishment these days.