(I have also posted this under Medications before I'm frantic to get responses. Please forgive the double posting.)
I am stuck between a rock and a hard place, please tell me what you would do.
I had a back fusion on Dec 30th. Neurosurgeon prescribed 30 mg long acting morphine and 120 10 mg lortabs for me to take 4 a day as needed. I had been taking them two at a time twice a day following with two aleve several times during the day.
The last appt with the NS was two months ago. I have one scheduled for tomorrow, Monday (23rd). When I went two months ago, he gave me one month of meds. When I called last month, Feb 24th, they called in the 120 lortab and told me I'd have to come to the office to pick up the morphine script. At that time I told her I didn't want to make the 30 minute tip and to let me see how I did.
Within days of running out of the 30mg LA morphine, I was in instense pain. Started taking the 15mg short acting morphine I had been given after surgery (still had leftover), instead of the loratab. The following week, I called the NS office and told them I needed the get the 30mg script and would come get it.
Every fine, they told me on that phone call they wanted to me start going to a pain management clinic. I said fine, I have one I was going to before my surgery.
To my surprise, I found out the one I had in my town had closed but the doctor had a couple other clinics. Had to wait 2 weeks to get referral from insurance through my PCP and then had to wait another week and a half for an appt.
I go to this appt last week with about a weeks or so left of loratabs. Saw new lady doc who said I'd never be on those meds (30 mg LA morphine and especially the 120 10mg loratabs at their clinic. Said she couldn't prescribe anything, had no records from my NS office, who said they had sent EVERYTHING over the day before and that had been confirmed by someone at the pain clinic (records received). Doc said she'd have to wait two week to get my urine and blood work back and she wanted me to start weekly exercise/therapy there once a week.
She also said the pain contract said I could not get meds from somewhere else but that she would allow the NS to give me one more script of lortabs because I told her I had TEN left and I could NOT PHYSICALLY WITHDRAW from the lortab in that short of time, given the months I had been taking them.
I called the NS's office to see if she could give me more lortab in the interium. His nurse said "he will give you no more, we told you we wanted you to go to a pain clinic". I explained that I HAD...that day, but that doc wouldn't prescribe anything for two weeks.
I feel this is totally unprofessional, unconscionable and unethical in regard to someone who has been on pain meds for almost a year.
Maybe I am over-reacting in the frantic-ness that those of us who are physically addicted feel when we know our drugs will be witheld. I have NO PROBLEM trying to come off the lortab, just don't think it's right to be left with two docs who won't prescribe more but gave me 10 left to come off them.
I will be calm going into his office and maybe my anxiety is unnecessary. He MAY give me a script to last me until I get fully into the pain clinic.
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING THIS and apologies that it's SO LONG.
Do I have recourse, am I justified in my anger? I'm scared, I will be so angry tomorrow at my NS's office I will start to cry because that's what I do when I'm trying to defend myself, also I pain to take 3 0.5 mg of xanax before going to hope to be calm enough to talk rationally.