As you can see by my signature, I am still having chronic pain from my 12/09 surgery. I have been on State Disability since 6/23/08 and therefore it is up on 6/23/09. I would not qualify for Social Security Disability at this time. I am supposed to return to work this Wednesday or Thursday as they have actually held my position, not without harrassing me along the way, making me train temps, work some from home at one point and giving me ultimatums. I have a desk job. I tried to go back to work in November for 8 days (not knowing I needed another surgery) and the new boss yelled and screamed at me several times. The stress made my pain so much worse that I went back on disability. They also placed me on Cobra for my health insurance which I have continued to pay.
My PM and OS do not agree on what is causing my pain and I am in the process of getting another opinion. My PM had an MRI done and said two of the screws in my neck are in too far and to see my OS about it. I saw my OS and he said the person who read the MRI is an "idiot" and per my CT, the length of the screws are perfect however, two screws are loose (even though the CT report says the hardware is fine). He has me back in a soft collar 24/7 except for showers. My OS does not feel the bone stimulator does any good after the first 90 days after surgery however, I do not feel there is any harm in continuing to wear it so I am. He gave me Nuerontin and said come back in 3 weeks. I can not take any medication stronger than Soma, Neurontin, Xanax and Fiorocet. I can take an occasional Vicodan however they don't do much of anything for the pain except make me feel sick.
My boyfriend, family and friends all say that my health is more important and not to worry about it if I can't go back yet. I feel so guilty and useless that I am thinking I should try it again for a week at a time, as my OS will write the release that way.
Please let me know if you are working in this kind of pain, if you have a desk job and how well you handle it.
Sorry for rambling. I'm so frustrated, can't stop crying and really need some advice from people that understand.