This seems like it could be the most appropriate place to post this, if not maybe one of the mods can move it for me.
I really feel lost at the moment. I've been dealing with lower back pain and sciatica for about 4 years now, actively trying to diagnose and treat for 2+ years. I've had zero success and my pain continues to slowly increase.
Two weeks ago I had a discogram, which, surprise surprise, also came back negative. However, when in recovery my pain spiked to about an 8 and has not decreased since. I've made a return visit to the doc that did the discogram and also to my PM doc. My old meds no longer work and subsequently my meds have been changed.
Now, I cannot take my new meds at work. Yesterday I nearly wrecked my car at least a couple times because I was fighting to stay awake driving home from work. Today? I'm not taking anything and cannot even hardly think straight. I cannot stand for more than 10 minutes and I am having difficulty sitting for anything longer than about 30 minutes. I can barely stand up from a sitting position! Bottom line is that I can't work if I take my meds and can't work if I don't. I absolutely dread going to work every day and it takes every fiber of my being to get myself out the door. I normally don't think real straight and have no desire to do anything but lie on the couch because the pain isn't quite as bad -- and I can be doped up.
So what has this little book of mine been leading up to? I am beginning to wonder if I should begin looking into disability. I looked at the SSA website and from what I can tell I wouldn't qualify for anything. I can sign up for FMLA at work but am afraid that as soon as I do that and use up some of my time, then the docs will find something and I'll be out for real for surgery or something. With not enough FMLA left over. All I know is I have pain at about an 8, with meds on board, and can't bear to do anything. Am I just being a whiney azz? Or is there something/anything I can do?
Can anyone give me some direction? I have absolutely no clue what to do or if I even am able to do anything. Things look so damn bleak because I really don't know that I have any alternative than to make my daily trek to work so I can be in miserable pain. And then go home to try and recover a little bit -- while in a drug induced stupor.
Thanks for taking the time to read all this and I hope it makes some sense (I'm a bit light headed and because it makes sense to me doesn't mean squat), if it doesn't let me know.