Ever since my discogram (which, as the doctor said, looked as normal as any he has seen) I've been real depressed and can't get out of that funk. Writing isn't my strength so I don't think I can truly express how reading everyone's posts about their successes and even their trials really does make me feel better.
I got to see my doc yesterday and he took me off the Norco and put me on MS-Contin & Valium. He called me "his enigma." I can't believe I said this, but I told him I'm glad I was able to pique his interest and I can make doctor co-pays for a long time. But only if he names a wing in his office after me. What a f'n loser I am, he and his staff are always the nicest folks! L) That's NOT me, I hate this.
Add to that, I've fallen a couple times at home and even at work once last week. You should have seen a couple guys I work with, they about freaked out! Luckily it was no big thing but apparently it's something I'm gonna have to deal with. I'm getting a cane to try out in the next few days. I can't believe the freaking train wreck I'm turning into and how everything looks great according to the doctors.
Gosh, I so sorry to dump on everyone! But I wanted to say how glad I am you all willing to share and how much it is helping me right now! Like others I think we share more here than with our own loved ones and I very much value the trust and friendships I've developed. For that I thank each and every one of you.
Your doped up, gimpy, depressed, spiney friend,
P.S. Saw some of my firefighter buddies the other day, you would not believe how hard it was for me not to climb the aerial ladder... climbing in the cab brought back a flood of many cool memories though, I nearly cried.