So I know this is probably a longshot. Reading on these boards I realize that my back problems are nothing compared to most. I've not had surgery, in fact my doctors don't even want to think about it. But still here goes my dilema......
I'm a 28 year old female, with 4 children. I'm lucky that I only work part time on the weekends for only 5 hours a day. However I work at a grocery store and I'm on my feet for those five hours straight. I do alot of bending, twisting, reacing, etc. When I do not have a customer, I am expected to sack groceries, which includes lifting cases of pop, large bags of dog food, etc. Sometimes even bending to put them on the bottom of the cart. I know I may sound like a big baby, but by the time I'm about two hours into work, I"m miserable. I hurt so bad the next morning I can't even get out of bed. I also can't take my medicine at work because I become very loopy and make stupid mistakes. And since I also deal with large amounts of money, that just isn't an option. I hate my job, but unfortunately I need it. That $100 a week that I bring home gets us by. But I feel like I spend the rest of the week recovering from working those two days.
I fear that I'm becoming a horrible mother, becaue I can never do anything. The house is a WRECK, my kids are getting into things that they shouldn't, my two year old keeps sneaking outside, and I just can't keep up. My 5 year old son has Autism and is supposed to go to therapy three times a week, but it is a 30 minute drive there, and sometimes I have to cancel because I just can't sit in the van for that long. I feel like I've become lazy, and I can't do anything about it.
I know I probably woudln't qualify for disabilty, but I don't know what else to do. Does anyone have any advice?