I think I really am slipping my gears here, my good friend Jacque says just hold on. But it is a slippery slope and I feel that I am gaining speed.
I got a severe anger management issue, I keep flying off the handle, A LOT. No physical violences just swearing and cursing and cursing and swearing. I seem to have broken my off switch, I don't suspect I will be regaining my composuir anytime soon!
Friday, stress at work, overtime, sports banquet elimination dinner then home, no stress there! I managed to not swear violently thought I maintained.
Saturday, towed my wifes boat out of storage 50 miles home, no problems yay, backing it intot he driveway sucked, then moving it over to the right space. still only got some neck spasms etc, So, all in all, OK. Noon, I go to work do the smorgasboard event at work, run the lights try and make sure it runs smooth. All is all it went well. just the normal stress of the day like thath.
Sunday, mow the lawn, tractor work out, pump up flat tire mow and wrestle with losing feelings in my arm and shoulder etc. Headaches, stress workout, but OK. Clean house for lacrosse dinner on tonight.
Monday, I get up and shower, look up and the ceiling in the bedroom is seriously wet! I investigate and find an A/C condensate line damaged. I spent 3 hours repaired replaceing that line, pulling the sopping wet insulation out and propping the plaser up to keep it from sagging. By then I just blew off the rest of work.
So I got pain, many, many issues and I think I can see little signs of stress? Lots of stress. All I see is me freaking out. I eat, sleep. drink and expell stress....
I have borderline high bloodpressure for the first time of my life, surgery in 6 days, I can't quite seem to get a handle on why I am stressed?
Oh, my shoulder HURTS too, could any of this stuff have me freaking out? I read once that it could be related?
So, I am way seriously thinking of seeing if I am a candidate for a few valium to get me calmed down before I jump of the frikkin roof. I am so incredibly freaked out. Tired, frazzled etc,
Anyone else have any thoughts on how I can reel this in till it or I calms down. If I make it to Monday I will stick the needle in my own arm to get something to calm down with !!!
I'm thinking og changing my screen name to Pansie.
Now quit that you big pansie