Fellow friends in pain, this is my first post. I suffer from a broken talus (ankle) and a ruptured L-5 received in a fatality auto accident 9/05/02. Physically, recovery for me is to walk with a pain level of 6. I'm being treated by a pain mgt. clinic with MSContin and Norco for break thru pain. These drugs cause depression, so I'm also given Lexepro an anti-depressent.
On May 5th 1992 I had my last mood altering drink and drug and since the accident SOBER. I have been taking all meds as prescribed. I have lived a very lonely existence. Feeling a bit alienated by the very group I got sober with. I'm not on a quest for sympathy, God only knows this poor pity full me routine is not only disturbing to my SELF, which has always been my biggest problem and also a tremendous issue for those I love. I'm pissed off. There is no happy medium in my life at this time. My AA brain can not be O.K. with me taking pain meds. and my broken body wont work with out them. It's one big cluster fxvz!
I have made efforts to maintain a full time job 57hrs a week since "recovering from the accident" so I maintain insurance and pay the bills ect. I'm feeling like a hamster on a treadmill. God I'm tired! WBA