I don't know how else to describe it.
My injury and surgery is still so recent, I am trying to adjust to this new life. Trying to come to grips with just how you recover from this. (Herniated L3-4)
Pain is much better but still there. I guess I'm just so anxious for fast improvement and of course what I'm stuck with is molasses sloooooooow.
I finally walked about a half mile yesterday in one shot. Had a small incline and decline. On the decline, I noticed my leg still wants to give way which is scary. I am so thankful that at least one of my legs is ok, however I have noticed a bit of pain to my right knee as well. I am thinking because it is taking up the slack for the left one now.
The weirdness...like a burning rope wrapped tightly around my knee. The strange sensations I have never felt before and never care to feel again.
And not having the same feeling "down there". Only tried it once pre-surgery and was shocked when things didn't work right. Didn't even realize until then, that I was having numbness there too. Terrified to try it again.....*sigh*
The knowledge of just how quickly your life can change and does. The worry that it will never be the same. The feeling of gratitude, because at least...I am one of the lucky ones.
I don't know where this rambling is going..........but there you have it.