I would be very very grateful if anyone could give me some advice,i have had acute chronic pain for 17yrs now,i have been on morphine for 5+yrs.
My pain doc mentioned that a painpump would be ideal for me,that,s when all my problem,s began because he then in the next breath said but i can,t do it here as we don,t have the facility,s,however i will send you to one of my collegues who may be able to help,i live in the u.k in a place called aldershot in hampshire,well my pain doc sent me to a place called essex,i duly saw the pain doc who was fantastic,he told me you would be an ideal candidate for this pump i will definatly give you the pump but we need to find someone who will do your refill,s,i told him my pain doc said he would help me,he told me i know your pain doc cuz he trained me but we have to see if he is willing to do the refill,s,when i got back [after a 1 and a half car journey each way!] i saw my pain doc who said sorry can,t do your refill,s,in that one sentance he may as well have stabbed me in the gut,s! i pointed out that he had told me prior to going i will help you no matter what,yeah right!it has been almost 3yrs now and i am still trying to get this pump and i am so desperate now that i am willing to travel to the hospital over 100 miles away to have the refill,s i really don,t know how much more i can take of this living hell,i have tried every thing out there to help myself spending money i could ill afford,not only has my pain affected me it has also affected my son, my husband,two week,s before christmas my husband left me because he could no longer live with me like this,i just don,t know what else to do? i feel very let down and i would give anything just to have this pump,i am also aware it may not work but at least give ma a chance,if there is anyone who can give me any advice on how i can get help to get this pump please because i really don,t know how much more i can take