This morning I met with my new ortho doc to discuss the results of my MRI (taken last Friday). I was hopeful that this doctor (who is one of the best in my area) would finally be able to figure out what's causing my ongoing sciatic pain in my left leg (suffering since October of 08). But, to the contrary, he could not find a reason to operate and told me if I were his family member there is no way he would let anyone operate on my back. I appreciated his honesty but am now confused about my future. He recommended a pain management doctor. To say I am despondent, frustrated, worried, scared is an understatement. How did I go from being a competent, capable adult who could provide financially for myself and take care of myself to what I am today? I can't even apply for disability because from what I'm told they don't recognize chronic pain as a disability. I don't know from day to day whether I will be in mild pain or severe pain. If I was able to manage my pain, I would not have lost the job I so dearly loved a few weeks back. I wish there was some type of interventional counselor that we could speak with to help with mapping out a plan for an uncertain future.
To complicate matters, my incision site on my left foot where I had surgery last October (which started this downward cycle) has become inflamed (for not reason)and my podiatrist is scratching his head as to what caused this issue since it's been such a long time since the surgery. Put me on antibiotics in the hope that this will take care of the issue and he won't have to go back in and clean out the infection.
I know that there are wonderful people on this website that are going through much worse than me at the moment and my heart goes out to you.
For those of us that are problem solvers, which I am, not being able to manage my own health is driving me nuts -- but again, as a woman of faith -- I must lean on God to assist me through this tough time.
Thanks for the ear! Sorry for the long post -- just had to vent.
Your sister in pain,