It's Sunday morning, I woke at 4:30 a.m. in pain, because I didn't take meds last night. Trying not to! Crying from frustration. My body hurts, bottom line. If you asked me right now to tell you where it hurts, I would have a hard time pinpointing it, because it seems to just envelope me sometimes. I am sitting here in pain. Now neck and arm pain. I know it's all related, like the fusions in the lower back have changed the load on my spine higher up. I'm starting phys. therapy for that next week, but my options for leg/back are not good: surgery again with no guarantees, that pain machine no guarantees. Just no guarantees at all because the cause of my lower back and leg pain is not clear. It could be from a herniated disc at L5-S1 or the tangle of scar tissue at the 2007 surgical site or the possible nerve root impingement at L4-5.
I read these posts and I know I don't have half the problems and pain as some people here. I am embarrassed to even be writing, as if I have it so bad. Oh my. I wish there was magic dust that people could just sprinkle over themselves to ease that pain, just take it away.
For me, really, it's not so bad. Take away the pain and my life is blessed. I have generally been a happy person with a wonderful husband and loving family. But mornings like this, I don't know. I feel kind of hopeless this morning. I guess I just need to vent to people who have been there. . .