I had a follow up visit today with my spine doctor, it was only the second time i've seen him because he is a workers comp doctor. I previously had my own spine doctor I was seeing on my own insurance. He told me that since the spinal injection didn't work that my next step is surgery. I do want to have the surgery (microdiscectomy on L5-S1), but I have to meet with the injection doctor on the 23rd and discuss with him if surgery is best. Then workers comp has to approve it which is a whole other issue. On top of the surgery on the worst herniated disc, I have to get spinal injections on the other two herniated discs (L3 and L4) They hurt really bad when I had them done, and I am not looking forward to 12 injections at once!!
The spine doctor put me back to work FULL TIME eventhough I told him since the injection on friday the pain has gotten worse and even the percocets aren't helping. He said I can't lift or bend but I have such a small work space I have to. Plus, my work space is definitely not conducive to my injury. I have to push myself around on grooved ceramic tile and my chair is old and the back doesn't even lock in place. I am pissed, I do want to go back to work but maybe a half day or work from home until I can at least get back to 50% of what I was before my injury! He did prescribe me Lortab but how am I supposed to drive 16 miles to work every morning while im high? lol
If the injection doctor agrees to me getting surgery then it has to be approved by workers comp and scheduled which would probably be late July. Sooo... I go to work for about a month only to have surgery and be out for at least another 4-6 weeks? Real smart.
Also, I have FMLA and have already used 6 weeks, by law you only are secured your job for 12 weeks so they can even terminate me if I do have the surgery and am not back within that 6 week time. I really could care less anymore, im really dreading going back to work because both my bosses were upset I was going to be out plus the one that snapped and cussed at me the day I left. I have been applying for jobs randomly but until I feel better there isn't much I can do =(
This whole thing is even making me depressed because I can't do anything for too long, I have gained weight because im not active, im completely bored all the time and I don't even know one day to the next if I have a job, how im gonna feel, etc. It's horrible!
Sorry to whine and complain on here but since none of my friends understand and I don't really talk about my feelings to anyone but my boyfriend I figured here would be a good place to vent. lol I appreciate whoever got this far. Thanks for listening
P.S. I think I need to get on some kind of anti-depressant, I am not an emotional person but I can barely handle all of the feelings im having and my boyfriend who works from home and is with me 24/7 is having a hard time dealing with my moodyness. Does anyone know how I would go about that? Do I need to have a psychiatric evaluation or see a therapist?? I do have insurance so do I just call one up?? I don't know anything about that but if someone has advice I would love to hear it!!