I have not been here as much as I have needed to be as a MOD or a MEMBER and for that I am sorry but life has taken me for a crazy ride lately but through all of the craziness , I have realized something so precious and I want to share it....to the other MODS and my Papa , I am sorry that I have not talked to you all first about this but I feel strongly about what I need to say so I will say it and deal with the consequences later but I love you all....please forgive me and understand.
Where do I begin but at the beginning....My life started really started with my husband and my children. They are my life and my everything. My husband saved me from myself....he is my hero , my everything.....my beloved and soul mate. My children , where do I even begin...they are the very ones that make me wake up each day and take that first breath...that breath of life. My family , they are my heartbeat , my breath , my pulse....I could not live without them. I am a broken woman , a woman that can't always do the laundry or cook dinner , but they love me and keep me going , irregardless of the cost. And that cost has been very high...my pain and my loss has hurt them but yet they stay by my side...they hold me up when I can't go on , they pick me up and carry me....they protect me....I am a blessed woman. They never needed to stay...not through my craziness , my hurt , my pain , my feeling like I was less than but yet they have stayed and they have kept me strong.
And then there has been my Spine Health family that has loved me and been there....the e-mails , the PMs , the phone calls....for all of those I thank you...I can never repay that kind of love , I truly wish that I could. You all are so wonderful and joyful to me....you know who you are!!!!!
I say all of this to let others know that there are the ones that love you , if you do not find them within your own family then you can find them here....Lord knows I have....My best friends come from this community...Papa and C and so many more thank you!!!
I may not be around much here lately in the near future because of my health problems but I will do the best that I can to be here for you all and as always I will answer any PM sent to me...please forgive me if it takes a day or two or three to get back to you but I have many things going on besides my spine issues.
And should there come a time that I may not be able to be a MOD to you all anymore then please understand that I will still ALWAYS be here for each and everyone of you...I love you all and I miss you all when I am gone....I only hope that you need and love me like I love and need you all.
I don't claim to be right all of the time but I always try to do right by the person , the member , the friend , my friend...the friend that suffers like I do...please always understand that....if you never know anything about me or if you never understand anything about me then always understand that my heart and soul has always been for you all that have suffered , hurt , been misunderstood and I would give anything , even my soul to make you all better...I love you all with a love that runs deeper than just about anything that I have ever known....I would take your pain and hurt unto myself and not think twice about it....because whether I know you or not , you mean that much to me!!!!
My life was saved from cancer , I fought it and lived and therefore I don't take things lying down...my Dad fights cancer now and he is fighting it in a way that I thought not possible... but my Daddy gives me strength , you all give me strength. I don't come here for pity , I come here to tell you all that life is beautiful and miraculous and so worth living!!!!! So , my friends , live it . and live it to the fullest!!!!! And I will be here by your side , through the good times and bad.....I love you all and please always take care....Miki