I'm sitting here in tears and I don't really know why. I hurt so bad today, I can't even walk straight. My pain pills do not work at all. I'm just at a loss as to what to do next. I first saw a neurologist back in February, he referred me to a pain management center to have an epidural injection done. I was told that I was to still be under the care of the neurologist, that the pain center was just to do my injection. Well I had the injection, it didn't work, then I lost my insurance. I get it back next week finally, and I'm just not sure what to do next. Who should I make an appt. with? My family doctor took me off work already, but said from now on I need to see one of the other doctors for anything related to my back. I don't want another injection, I don't think. But the pain center did say before the first one that they were guessing on where the pain came from so if the first one didnt' work, they would know where to put the second one. I just don't know anymore.
I have three kids I'm trying to take care of, and I honestly feel like the worst mom in the world. My middle son has therapy for his Autism three days a week and I don't know if I'm gonna be able to continue to get him there. I'ts only a 20 min. drive, but it about kills me.
I feel like all I do anymroe is complain and scream about things. My house is a wreck. The laundry is piled up. I did finally get to the grocery store last week, so we have food, I just can't stand long enough to cook anything. I feel like I shouldn't ask my husband for help, because he works all day and shouldn't have to come home and clean and cook, when I've been home all day. And appearently he feels the same way.
I can't even keep up with bills and paperwork anymore. I get so overwhelmed when I sit at my desk, that instead of doing the stuff I need to be doing, I get on myspace and play games all day.
I've filed for food stamps, and SSDI, but I know I won't qualify for either one. I regret even filing because now I have so much more paperwork to worry about.
I'm just having a really bad day, and really needed to vent.