I am having a really hard time dealing with how much my car accident last year has changed my life. I never had any real back pain in my life until the accident besides for a lot of muscle pain when I had an accident 18 years ago. The accident 18 years, I healed with no damage or pain left at all since a year or two after that one. The guy that caused the new accident walked away with no injuries or his passenger. I walked away with a bad back, more knee damage, a severely sprained wrist and a shoulder injury. I have already had to have more knee surgery, am going for back surgery now and have been told by the insurance company's Orthopedic Surgeon that I need to have my shoulder repaired too. All these injuries have caused me to lose my job that I started two weeks before the accident and now can not work for now. I don't know when or if I will be able to go back to working any time soon. Not working is causing severe financial problems and that is making waves in my relationship. He has been out of work since being laid off due to work shortage and his back. He has a herniation too. All of this starting to cause a real strain on us. I understand I have changed my mood but I am in so much pain it is too hard not to change. I feel bad when I get upset over stupid stuff but in the same token I believe he is acting the same way from his pain. In a lot of ways he is a lot worse but won't admit he is having a problem. He is putting it all on my shoulders and that is making it harder on me. I love this man and want to be with him but I do not know if we can survive this turmoil much more. I can't stand the blaming part. I always have admitted when I do wrong and apologize. I need him right now because I am scared about my back surgery next week. I am scared that it won't help me or make me worse. I don't know what to do any more. I had a friend, that I met on sh, help me this morning but I can't keep burdening her with my problems she has her own. I do see a social worker but I honestly don't know how much she is paying attention to me any more. She writes stuff down but I feel like she isn't really listening to me the way I need. I do need the support but she has her own injuries from an accident that I hear about everytime I am with her. I am not there to hear her problems but my own. So this is part of the reason I am lost on what to do to help my relationship and myself.