Anyone else ever wonder if we sub consciously give ourselves a crash course in misery around the date of our accident? Providing you had one of course!
I seriously think I am nuts....which probably means I am not.
I'm real tired of chasing the new "me".... Told my wife I feel like I am chasing rainbows while stepping in cat crap.
I'm trying to get into to see my shrink after avoiding that option for weeks now. I finally realize that what I am currently thinking is to distorted to continue on with.
Life has gotten me down and kicked my behind.
I'm two months out from my SCS and while it manages my pain decently I feel like screaming at it because I need to use it.
There are so many variables hitting me right now I can't think straight.
My job is still in limbo waiting to see if it will be rewritten, if H.R. will accept it. Will ONE or of ANY of my doctors even agree I am limited? Do I need that? I don't know.
My oldest son is going into his Sophomore years of college and wants a place to live. My wife wants to buy him a house or mobile home since we will have sons in college for the next 7 years.
My Mom-in-law has a resort property with a very old cabin that needs lots of work. MIL wants to sell it as taxes run $6k a year, well my wife wants to buy it TOO!
I'm sleeping about 4 hours a night then I toss and turn as I have so many aches and pains I can not sleep well.
There are like a million projects around the house I have not been able to do that are haunting me.
Does anyone see a pattern here?
Tomorrow marks the 3 year point from my bike ride <:P
Sorry for dumping this all here, but I need to put it somewhere...
Don't worry, my PCP is aware and working on getting me in to see my shrink asap. He wanted me to see someone else sooner, but I ain't going there. I think if I had to explain all this to someone new I would go 8}