I'm 15 and 3 weeks ago I had a major operation on my spine, they've made the bottom bit of my spine artificial and there's a metal frame on it too.
I don't mind the scar/wound/stitches, but I keep having funny moments. I'll catch sight of myself in my long mirror and I'll see it and go into a deep trance staring at it, I'll gently stroke my hand down it and my head goes weird and I get all these thoughts and wonder why it's there and have to really think hard about what happened. I wonder if it's mine, I wonder if I really did have an operation etc.
I keep going extremely off.
And I keep getting extremely upset as I want to know why I'm so different and why I had to have it done, I'm not going to get better for a very long time yet, might not do and I'm scared. Help.