I am feeling sorry for me, not sure exactly how or when, but after I got in the car for a short l0 min ride and the time I got out of the car my middle back went into a spasm. It's horrible, can't move without skreeching. My arms and legs are not involved, it is limited to my middle back, almost on line with my waist. I am icing and feeling quite miserable. My husband is out in the backyard swimming, I hear the music, and my daughter is having lunch with some friends, I am in bed, feel like crying. I had so many things I wanted to do. Have taken pain and muscle relaxers, but they aren't helping, can't sleep, just in to much pain.
I did go on amazon and ordered a bed/computer table, also ordered a new bathrobe and 2 nightgowns, a new wedge, and a small wedge for under my knees (have always used a pillow). But the real point is I don't want to be in bed, I want to be outside enjoying what is left of the summer.
It has been a horrible year for me, no matter how you look at it, I just want things things to go better. Last Oct my Dad fell, went into hospital and then rehab, Mom decided then he was "to much for her to take care of", so I found him an assisted living to move into near me, Mom thought it was better for him to move near me, she lives 1 hour from me. Dad moved in Dec. In Jan he got sick, was in hospital 21 days and then rehab, and then back to assisted living. April 1 mom fell, needed a new knee, then she was in rehab for 6 weeks. While she in rehab, mom in law passed out, needed a pacemaker with defib, she went into rehab, actually got my Mom's bed, and then I had to help my mom who lives 1 hours away. I told her her suitcase was heavy for me, and that drving an hour was a lot for me, told her I didn't feel well. She put me on a guilt trip saying I could always help my Dad but that she was always to much for me. I helped her, reaching and re organizing her things to make things better for her. My arm hurt and felt weak, and that is what made me go to my own doctor and then the neurologist. The first neurosurgeon I saw was in June, he wanted to do the surgery in 2 weeks, said not to wait till end of summer. Wanted another consult, when Dad got sick again, he was septic. In hospital for 24 days, he was in ICU for days, he was non responsoive at one point, doctor said he wasn't going to make it, he was in acute renal failure. Put off surgeons apt for me. Dad woke up and got well enough to go to rehab. On Mon he is going back in to hospital for some minor surgery he was to weak to have 2 weeks ago, and then back to rehab and then hopefully back to assisted living. In between this I am having my surgery....I think you may understand better why I am depressed and feeling as though nothing goes right. I want to be outside enjoying the nice weather, but realize that isnot going to happen.
Thanks for listening....