I am a 30 year old male who is constantly told i am worthless and just looking for an easy way out. I'll start by telling that i was a very hard worker. The hardest is what they use to say. That made me proud of my work. I have been not working for 3 years now. Before i stopped working i went and got my GED so i would not have to do construction work (Roofed for 7 years of my last working years). I did not get it soon enough. Shortly after getting it i got a maintanence job at a factory and could not tolerate it but for a week and a half. Went to Wal-mart and landing a sporting goods department job for 3 weeks i handled it, Then i went to frischs resturaunt for 1 day. My pain was so bad on these jobs and the work was so easy. So i filed for disability which i fought with for 2 years +. and got nowhere. I have seen multiple doctors and no help i am to young to be in the shape i am they say, i have several herniated disc, annular tears and degenerative disc disease. I try and do things but everything is so painful. I went from being worthy to worthless. I have depression real bad and at times i don't want to live. I thought i was alot better so i began getting more active and it all started back up like before. I met a wonderful woman right at my worse when i could not get up on my own and couldn't walk for long periods, she stuck by me even when i lost my home and she supported me the best she could but now we live apart and it hurts me., That i cannot be a real man on account of chronic back pain, her mom has disability for back problems and cusses me like a dog and tells her to get a guy with money, I have begged for help from doctors 90 percent turn me away because i am trying to get medicaid. I had it once and lost it due to moving and i didn't get some papers in on time and have not been able to get a doctor to see me since then. I am so lost on what to do, i just want to have my old back again the one that made me the money and pain free. Back pain has really messed up my life. I have lost everything i have had. People around me don't know what it is like to have severe back pain. My mri even shows all the bad but it is like doctors don't care cause i have no insurance. Well that is me. I hope some of you can relate.