Its been awhile since I've posted but I've been lurking.
I recently went to the VA for treatment again, and they volunteered a new MRI! I was shocked. I went in for the MRI and everything seemed to go smoothly.
My doctor got the reading back and the films seemed to show the same thing the last MRI showed, except the doctor referred to what the last film showed to be DDD as Arthritis. I am still a bit unclear about the whole situation going on with my back now.
The docs took me off of percocet cold turkey with a three week taper off of Morphine. I am 10 days "clean" and the detox was hell, but I'm coping and I think my body function is just now starting to get back to "normal".
I have been put on prozac for my "clinical depression" and gabapentin for the back pain. I do not feel either medication is working for one reason or another.
Since I have started the gabapentin I have begun to twitch. The sensation is almost like I have wires on my joints making me jump from time to time. Sometimes, the twitches are really visible and violent(not the word I want but can't come up with better at the moment).
Is DDD considered Arthritis? A nurse at a VA clinic heard me say what I had and said in a dismissive tone, "Its just arthritis, you'll be fine." I am tired of going to the VA for treatment and getting dismissed as if the pain I feel is not important. They are always very careful to say if I feel pain then the pain is real. It just seems like the VA is just trying to dismiss me. I don't really want to get back on the narcotics, as the detox was/is hell. The kicker of the matter is the VA does not seem to have anything to do for me to deal with the pain. Handle the depression with prozac and Gabapentin for the pain (which isn't working for any of my pain as far as I can tell).
I'm a broken record, can't sleep, and almost angry to the point of aggression and violence (which sucks because there isn't anything around to get violent with, and even if there were the movement would cause me more pain).
Tired of the pain.
Tired of the pills.
Tired of the insomnia.
Tired of the fatigue.
Tired of it all.
I think I'm going to try to go to sleep now. Sorry for the rambling. If you can discern my question in all this and can answer, I'd love it. I guess the Title says it all. Yay, now my carpal tunnel is kicking in. Or perhaps my fingers just wanted to get to sleep before me.
With manic mania and crazy crackers in my bed,