I'll think things are getting better, then they get worse. I have a herniation at L4/L5 and L5/S1. Been in PT for 4 months- no help. Got one shot- made things so much worse that I am so scared to go back and get another. Now doing 'egoscue' method- basically giving 1500 bucks on my credit card since i'm not working to a method that hasn't been proven. I feel..... like if I didn't have family that would be greatly impacted by my leaving..... like I could contemplate something serious. I can't handle everyone telling me something different:
"your back is fragile, do nothing but Makenzie stretches"
"stretch your hips and do eliptical"
"your back isn't fragile at all, it's your mind creating pain as a distraction so go run!"
"it's muscle imbalance".
I could quote a lot more.
I am 26- was supposed to be starting law school, which I worked really hard for. now I do nothing. just sit at home, cry, try and walk, never sleep... on and on. I realize a lot of people have it worse- I'm engaged and supposed to be getting married- I cannot imagine subjecting him to a life of misery with a girl who has no hope, who is constantly in pain and cries all the time. I'm.... perhaps at the end of my rope. I can honestly say I feel pathetic, worthless and don't know who to listen to. Thanks for reading this whining and perhaps pathetic post.