Most of you know my story and how my doc stopped my meds so I will not go into it again. What I will say is OMG this has been a horrible week. I tried to make appointment with PCP and he is on vacation so I called PM and explained what is going on and I see him Friday, but heres the real reason for this post. I got to thinking is my pain really that bad or am I just afraid of the pain? I would love for the answer to be that I am afraid of the pain but it is not. This week has been a nightmare! With meds I can work, take care of my 80 year old mother and enjoy life. Sure I cannot do alot of things even with the meds but at least they give me some quality of life.
This week I could only work about 20 hrs, had to have help taking care of my mother and have barely slept at all.Pain was too bad to let me sleep. I have a good relationship with PM doc and I am just going to lay it all onto the table. I need help and I need some relief,NOW! As far as my PCP goes I have decided he is not the right doctor for me. I need a doctor that will take care of my medical issues not one that makes me feel guilty because I have medical needs. As Donald Trump says "your fired!". Or at least he will be as soon as I find another one. LOL. I keep telling myself "you can make it until Friday" but it feels like it might as well be a month away.