Deep pain like bones rubbing together in lower back
I am new here and I am looking for advice just like everyone else. I don't have my MRI's to give my full description of my injury, But will have them in a week or so. I do know my last disc is gone. When shown a MRI from last year from a Neurologist he stated in the MRI that ur dosc are suppose to be white. Well there might have been 1 tiny little spec of white on the MRI or it might have been sum dust!:P Anyways I get this unbearable pain Deep in my lower back like my bones are rubbing to gether. I am use to putting my hands on my hips and kinda like pullin my spine away from my hips.. Weird yes but to me sometimes it feels refreshing. Could be just a mental thing and prolly not doing any good but mentally it helps. I also just went in to have a EGI or something like that where they scratch your nerves to see if you have a pinched nerve. I was told my left side of has a pinched nerve. Guess thats why I have pain all the way down that leg. I am a Veteran and I have to deal with the Va Hospital. I have been givine Tizanidine HCL 4mg 1 every 12 hrs. and Gabapentin 300mg three a day. Sense I had to switch doctors there I was not issued Vicodin 7.5/500 at this time. Maybe my next visit I will. Sad that I was given them for the past year but at a first visit with a doctor they wont cont. given you them. And Yes I asked to be put back on them... They do help me with controlling the pain. If they could somehow give me a different drug to subside the pain than I wold gladly try it. But for now I'd rather stick to something I know that works better than the others. I am very active cause of my daughter and I choose not to have surgery at this time. There is NO guarantee I will be fixed and I don't want to loose any playtime with my daughter if the surgery doesn't work or if it gives me limitations like bendin down to pick her up or holding her. Right Now its sucks I cant sleep but about 2-3 hrs a night. I can only hold my daughter for bout 5 mins and thats pushing it. But I do hold her longer at times and just deal with the pain. Of course when I have my meds I don't think of the pain as much. Even when I drive my car after 5 mins I have to slouch or lean in a different direction. It's very painful. But I have to maintain the right state of mind and just wait for a better soloution.
So can anyone relate with my pain or what I am going through emotionally while waiting for my doctors to stop bouncing me off the meds that help?? What can I do or tell my doctor to make her understand that my pain requires some type of Narcotic due to the pain I am having?? Thanks alot for your opinions and suggestions