Hello everyone I would like to post how I am feeling. Pain, well is like a shattered mirror… just try and put the pieces back together. Impossible! I am usually a pleasant kind person, but at this point have broken down. Reaching out for help? Oh you bet I am. I think I may have finally snapped. Yes SNAPPED. I cleared off a whole table in a matter of seconds all the little decorations on it broken. Yep all broken. Where do we put broken things? Ya you guessed it the garbage. Not only do broken things go in the garbage but also things that do not work or aren’t functioning properly. Compare that to someone’s pain. Why any different? You try and get help and get treated like garbage for doing it, this is what you deserve for being in pain. But oh well to bad nothing anyone can do right? Just have to deal with it. I’m sick of just dealing with it. Chronic Pain… clear and simple = a living hellish nightmare repeating itself daily. All the days of suffering and for what? Why do people deserve this? You go to get treated by people you think can help you and just might fix you. And for what just to get let down again. Please all those people care about is making their money. Where are the values? Don’t they have feelings? I have yet to find a sincere kind understanding doctor. I have yet to see the day. You put your trust and spend years yes years working with your doctor only for them to tell you they can no longer help you at this point?? What?? Strange yes when you thought everything was going good between the two of you. You put up with the embarrassment and feeling of worthlessness to try and get relief. Reaching out for help only to be labeled as another statistic of a chronic pain sufferer. They do what “they feel is in your best interests” well MF’s feel this, spend one day in my shoes “feel” my pain. They would go crazy! All the years of putting up with the EVIL NURSES and the doctors who doubt you oh yes you can see it in their eyes. You better believe they do. Never mind that you have legitimate medically documented condition. Feeling hopeless, helpless? Well there is now reason to be. When the doctor tells you your pain is permanent pretty much equals a life sentence a prison. They tell you there is nothing they can really do? Tell me how is one suppose to feel after this?? The pain horrible pain try and ignore it…how can you? It won’t go away it’s never ending!! Babbling on and on? Yes. But do I care? NO. To bad I have some respect left for myself to end the pain… finally relief right? Self pitty maybe but hey at least I’ll admit it. Now maybe I can be labeled as CRAZY. I feel like going CRAZY. The pain is making me CRAZY. Maybe a medically induced comma? Finally some peaceful rest. Someone tell me this, how to deal with the pain without: medications, PT, surgery, injections, complementary services, ect as they have all been tried. Tell me cause I don’t get it. I want to be better I’m tired of living in this hell. I’m tired of all the tests the pills and mostly the daily suffering. Anyone have any suggestions???? I do believe in my Lord and savior Jesus, I have prayed for healing. I know my swearing is wrong but I have to let it out. Where are my rights as a patient? Why because I have legitimate chronic pain and medical proof of my condition am I getting treated basically like well a big pile of crap because I am reaching out for help for my pain??? The prognos is the pain isn’t going away.Yay. I can’t picture myself dealing with the pain alone. Hopeless? Helpless? Oh ya there is reason to be, screw this crap. The worst part about it is I am young. 20's. I get to look forward to a life filled with chronic pain. I feel trapped as if I were in my 90’s people my age are not supposed to be this way. What the…??!!!! Word of warning, be careful who you trust with you pain cause it can be shattered. People say they understand? How could they? They DO NOT Feel the pain that you are feeling. Sorry for the book but people gotta vent sometimes right?