my name is ryan. no one in my life seems to understand what it's like to be in pain every second of every day. or what it's like to be in bed 90% of the last year. even my girlfriend seems to be growing tired of me being in pain. i'm surrounded by people but feel isolated and alone in my suffering. i'm just dying for someone to understand what i'm feeling, and how much one's mental state is affected by chronic, debilitating pain. i just NEED someone to understand what i'm going through.