There a lot of days that I think my pain is not so bad that I need surgery. The pain medication I take seems to be doing a fairly good job. And then I will try to do a few things, like clean and laundry, and then I realize very quickly why I am going to have surgery. The pain is horrendous!
I had one such day yesterday. I have been so-so lately, so thought I would use the energy I had to try to do a little cleaning and a few loads of laundry. My mom has been helping out with cleaning chores, and my husband does most of the laundry these days, so I thought it was nice that I had some energy and was going to do some of it myself. :jawdrop: OMG... bad move. I had some of the worst pain episodes yesterday that I have ever had in my life. The electrifying pain in my back was non-stop!
And it takes a stupid moment like that to wake me up and bring me back to the realization that I am only so-so when I don't move much off the couch during the day. I will never have a normal (or close to normal) life without surgery.
So, once again, I know how much I need this surgery to try to get some sort of normalcy back in my life. I just wanted to share that with you all. I am 25 days until surgery now. It can't come soon enough for me. If I have to be in horrible pain, I would rather it be while I am recovering!