It's been a year and a 1/2 since my surgery. The first year was awesome, I was getting better and better as time went by. A few months ago I started having pain again and I made excuses for it everytime (rain, I over did it physically, ect...) Lately there have been times when I am in pain for no apparant reason at all and quite often. Today at work I lost feeling on the whole left side of my body as well as my right thigh. This hasn't happened since before my surgery. I am so upset and so scared. I can't go through this again, the thought makes me literally sick. My life before my surgery was a living hell, I was in severe pain every day, numbness in my arms and legs and literally couldn't do much of anything except sit in a chair. I thought all my prayers were answered with my surgery and now I feel numb from disappointment and fearful for what lies ahead for me.