I can't even begin to express the gratitude, happiness and relief I feel. I stopped working in June of 07, applied for SSD for the second time in July 09, and was approved in October. I was found disabled dating back to June 07, so I received 2 years back pay. I also have 2 children that I will be getting back pay for as well.
To say that the money was needed is an understatement. My husband and I lost a lot with my inability to work, and his 2 lay offs in 2008. I never saw a light at the end of the tunnel. I was certain this time I would be denied as well and would need to retain a lawyer.
Some say that the approval is bittersweet because on the one hand it is so great to know that extra income will be coming in. But on the otherhand, it's kind of like "wow, I really am disabled". I have had many moments over the last 3-4 years where I have cried many times with the realization that I am disabled, so really this approval is just validation for me, and I actually feel better. Don't get me wrong, the tears are still shed. When I get back from the grocery store (when all I've done is direct my husband what to put in the cart) and I sit and cry because I hurt, or the days when I can't shave my legs, or when my husband needs to put my socks on for me, or when I drop something and the closest family member comes running to pick it up without even thinking twice about it, or not being able to make plans with friends unless I've been there before and I know I don't have to stand and that there are comfortable chairs to sit on, the list goes on.
I just realized I went on a tangent there! I guess it's something I just needed to get off my chest!
To all of you who are still in the application stage, do not give up. Keep trying, keep appealing. It may take a while, but I am one more person who now has a lot more faith in the SS system.