HI all. My ACDF (2 level) was Nov. 6th. That's like 5 weeks now. I am at a loss as to what I'm doing wrong. I think I've had maybe 5 nights in all this time that I sleep the night. The doctor gave me Valium...stops the spasms but doesn't put me to sleep...HOWEVER...I'm so tired the next day that I'll fall asleep just watching a movie, reading a book, sitting at the dining room table (trust me...that's not cute
). So other nights I take Tylenol PM and no Valium....it has worked twice but doesn't stop the spasms, which of course means that I'm waking up again.
I'm tired of being tired. Tired of the aching in the back of my neck. Tired of crying (and I am NOT a cryer typically). I thought by now I'd be doing more things. Cooking for my family is a trip and a half. Our pots and pans are heavy. My cabinets are high. Gosh...I'm frustrated! I thought I was doing good. I had a good 2 days at the end of last week so I though to try moving back into my own bedroom (waterbed from my last post). That didn't work and I've been in pain since. I walk on the treadmill but if I can do 5 minutes at a time....thats a lot. I'd previously lost 38 pounds since Jan. I've put about 11 pounds back on in 5 week!!!!!! I need to be more active but find that I can't handle it and its hard to be patient.
So I'm sitting here, typing and crying. WHY AM I CRYING???? These stupid tears come at the drop of a hat. I like to walk outside but I'm in NYC and its cold. The tightening up to try to stay warm...believe me not a good idea.
There are days that I am so positive about this and feel great! And then there are days like today, where I'm so tired that after sending my son off to school, I'm back in the bedroom. Because my sleep is so erratic, I'll probably fall asleep but in all this, I think I'm laying around too much.
sorry to vent...I'm so frustrated and weepy today.